Blessings

What a blessed life we live! My family is blessed with all that matters most and more. But we all go through trials in our lifetime. Those things make us who we are. We cannot just amputate them and act like they never happened. But we can learn and grow through them by God's grace.
My life has always seemed to go as planned "my plan" until December 2005 when we had a miscarriage. I thought that was pretty tough until August 24th, 2006 when Cambell Grace Love was born at only 24 weeks of pregnancy. It was too early for us to keep her here with us. God had greater plans for her life. That one hour I got to hold her was one of the sweetest yet hardest hours of my life. From that day our lives were forever changed. One day we will see her again. But for now she is in the Lords arms. For now I hope she sings, dances, and plays in all of Heavens beauty. She will forever be our baby girl and hold a special place in our hearts.
We often wonder what good God can bring from such horrible circumstances. God is good to us even when he is up to things we don't understand. I have a greater appreciation for my children. They did not just spring into my life as one of those expected "plans." Because of Cambell, Nolan is here today. I will never forget the words of our pastor as he prayed over Nolan at the hospital. He said, " Cambell paved the way for Nolan to be here." Those words made so much sense to me and gave me a greater peace.
Through those tough circumstances we had faith that God would give us another child. We became pregnant just three months after our horrible loss. The pregnancy went great until 20 weeks came along. My body was already wanting to start the labor process but with a cerclage placed and 17 weeks of bed rest our little miracle , Nolan, arrived at 37 weeks when doctors predicted 30. What a blessing he is to us. I cannot imagine life without him.
When we thought we would not be able to have more children we knew we would adopt. But after having two healthy children we never thought we would entertain the idea again. However, the door keeps knocking. We have wrestled with this for three years. The longing has never went away . Our family doesn't feel complete. How can I miss someone so much that I have never met? For this reason we have begun our journey to Korea!
Much of the paper work has been filled out. There are many other hoops to jump through before we can hold the end result. We know it is going to be one big roller coaster ride but we are ready. We are excited and nervous all at the same time. There are fears of coarse. It is going to be worth it in the end. If this is meant to be we know God will provide the way. We hope this is one more blessing from Cambell Grace's short life.